hello!
it has been ages since i last wrote a blogpost for you!
sorry i know i have been bad!
depriving you of your blogpost :O
but nvm here it is!
suddenly have the funny feeling of writing blogpost hehe.
dont know how to explain!

yeah i enjoyed the past few days with you :)
dont know why we can always be happy so easily
though we were quite unhappy before that!
doing all the stupid things with you
especially today!
wth sms your house phone LOL
and writing down what are we supposed to do today!
ok is you write down on mine LOL
but it was quite cool!
like the first time we were together those kind of feeling
sweet sweet kind!
though i was damn tired
i swear i wanted to go back home
or else i would have went for hockey
i dont know why i wanted to fetch you to wooodlands leh ahah
guess i missed you too much wahaha! xD
so happy!
keep smiling!
really like everything that is happening between us :)
hope this nice feeling continues on and on and on!

sorry that i havent been the best
i dont know why
sometimes it seemed so difficult for me to accomplish some things you want
and the more you want
the more i also want
the morei get nervous/excited
the more i screw up :/
sianzz! i need more luck!
hopefully one day
i can really dont do anything that will make you unhappy!
try my best ok!
really mean it!

GAH I FELL ASLEEP LOL.
sorry ah too tired just now!
nvm you will be shocked i guess!
at least when you woke up
feeling that junhao sucks this and that
but then you realised junhao rocks! cos he did it xD
now left one more!
shall make you damn happy!
ok i need to continue sleeping!
blogpost after another happy day ok haha
LOVE YOU LOTS SWEETHEART!
STAY CUTE STAY SWEET AND STAY IN MY HEART <3

haha feeling kinda empty and sad now
i really need my pandagirl :(
hope when i return on mon
i will be happy
praying for that.....
misses and loves to my dearest

hello dear!
the post you wanted before i leave for msia is here ahha
sorry but if i don't use dear laopo all it will be difficult for me to write.

yup i know taht the past few months
most of the things were caused by me
if it wasn't me
the one that is not moving,
maybe everything wouldn't be like this
sorry sorry
and i am not lazy leh ok!
i am taking initiative to do something now!
see you wanted it now then immediately i came to do this!
even though i wanted it longer.

yupyup dear you must believe me
i will make it alright de
i will put more effort and hardwork in this rlts
instead of you being the one who is doing everything yet i am slacking
and there complaining about you!
whatever i said ytd is really true
i will make amends
then i will make it right
surely this time
can;t afford to amke a mistake anymore
so must believe me!
though i don't think you will now
but i still have confidence you will!
we will surely improve and become better de!

hmmm even though bad things happened
but i think they taught me something
at least i learnt a lesson now
nothing is too late
as long as i am still willing to make a difference or a change.
dear ah seriously i will do it!
i can still remember all the happy times we have
they will happen again de
since they happen once
so yup
we will really become better de
i have confidence in us!
so yup soon to come
we will become damn sweet!
remember the future we always wanted?
yesyes it will come true
you must believe it ok!
i can totally feel the happines of the future with you in it
doing nothing, playing games, more biking tent and everything!
it seriuosly get better and better and it makes me smile more and more by the thought of it
since both of us really care and of course love each other
we cannot give up ok?
we really must stay on and strong!

thanks for everything dear
i know i have not been nice
i know you have been trying very very hard
but to no avail cos i won't listen
i really know all your hardwork
that's why i am willing to do something
cos i really love you
i don't know why
even at the saddest or furious moments
somewhere in my heart
i am still thinking of you
i scold you cos i care ok
sometimes really!
i really want you to be with me badly
really can't imagine life without you
without panda girl
how can panda boy continue to be a panda boy?
so dear really!
we can pull this true!
remember al the cards we wrote for each other
the lengthy or maybe even short and sweet msg we have
i won't give all this up
so i hope you won't too!
lets hold our hands together
to get past this major obstacle
for the better future that awaits us!
i love you sweet!
really miss the very very happy smile on your face
let's not let anything affect us again
i will do something de
promise xD
take care and hope you are resting well!
i hope that you will be safe at the camp!
love by your panda boy! xD

happy 49weeks xD
haha.
dont know why i don't really feel the excitement of it
for now i guess
like it was supposed to be a nice feeling every single day
as we countdown towards 1 year
but every single day more and more things happen
some out of my control.
i admit majority is my fault
somehow or rather though i refuse to admit at first
but why can't it be solved?
i swear i have been trying to do every single thing she told me
ok mybe not all
but mostly!
i am really sure of that
and i know she does too
but why everything just don't turn right?
i am like being reminded of the day before funorama
and the the past few days
where some of the incidents feel like they are pointing towards it
i don't know
i am really scared of it
i can just cry thinking of it
never once thought of giving up
and neither will i do that
but it seems to me that i hurt her too much for her to give up?
i don't know
i guess i don't know really understand her that well
everything is different out of the sudden
the way we talk, act and do
i can feel it
she doesn't feel as happy as before
which is kinda sad cos i still do lol
hmmm dont know what made her don't like me so much
sometimes i just want to say that why can't you just accept everything
but i realised that's impossible
cos i can't too
because of that i think i got abit frustrated
don't know what to do or act
just get pissed and just rant
in the end more mistakes
i know she is tired
but i am too
though i ain't giving up
i can't say i will change entirely
but i know i will try my best
ever since the hockey trainings from 2010
bad things happened here and there
but i bear it all
she did too
it is just suck and saddening to hear that your gf lost faith and confidence in you :(
maybe i expect everyone to be like me bah
awhile later won't be so angry
can accept other people in a short time
and the spirit of being optimistic
which is not true bah
cos i really want to make it last
but how?
not everything is up to me
i may do stuffs
but it's up to her to decide if it works
feel kinda stressed up now
must be cautious of what i say every single moment
must think super carefully before i do anything
must put everything ia m supposed to do in my head
and i don't know even know what the future lies for me
how do i have the incentive or the driving force to push me on?
it is hard to make her happy nowadays
being nice after some quarrel don't really resolve the situation like last time
she gets angry over longer periods and frequently
she seems happier with her friends
having more things to say
now she even lost the passion to do a card
for our on year...
i don't know hwat to do anymore leh
i just feel damn sad inside
i don't like all her tests and things to resolve the situation
tests make me lose self esteem
as if loving a person need to pass a mark to be able to continue doing so
and i have to make an extra effort to do more stuffs
though it's not self initiated
independence day or whatever
it doesn't work
it just make us feel more adapted with our friends
and enjoying the company
soon the love for each other presence will be all gone
what's the point man lol
but since i don't have any way to solve
plus she really wants it
i don't seem to have a choice right?
somehow i hope our personailities are much more similar
so that we can accept each other more
i am starting to accept the fact that she likes to scratch her face
and sms while walking
and doing other hw during classes
i don't say as much
i just let her be
guess she likes freedom?
hmmm i don't know
it is rather sad to see your gf not to sit with and only sit with you when other people forced her to
and your gf running away from you
kinda heartbroken
if only i can erase this feeling man...

HELLO DEAR!
finally your longgggggggggggggg waited blogpost is here!
sorry for being late as always oops! T.T

hmmm i told you i don't know what to write here
and currently in my mind i still don't have an idea what should i say
haha.
enough of the crap!
yupyup it's 10months of panda love
since it all started in 040609 1141!
a very magical timing
it gets me thinking that
why are we together
why are we enjoying each other so much
and why are we so sweet bla bla bla
but i realised one thing
it happens all because of you
your appearance in my life
at 1st as a friend
made me felt happier
but after more outings and random sms chats
not forgetting calling you to wake you up
really made me feel more attached to you
and want to take things further between us!
i was sure that something good will happen
and i was right-
life with you has ever since made me a whole cheerful every single
don't really remember anyday which you failed to make me smile happily
with your smile face actions
almost everything you do!
totally touched my heart.
what's more during the seasons period and before
so many things happened between us
but you still hanged on
you beared everything for me
you get disappointed but you forgive me
you sacrificed yourself because of me!
i seriously can't find any other fault in you
just thought of all the efforts you spent in doing the cards you gave
they were so nice that i feel guilty giving you my card!
sorry dear for making you so sad and whatever things you felt this few months
but everything that i promised you i will do means i will do it!
trust me darling xD
and ya all the sweetness that have been missing
are actually back!
so cherish this rlts
cos i will hold on to this panda love!
love you sweetie!
everything with you is the best thing xD

HEY HEY PANDA GIRL!
once again another blogspot dedicated to you wahahah!
HAPPY 7 MONTHS<3333333
reached my favourite number leh!
happiness ttm and it's 215 days leh!
don't know how to describe this 215 days
it's like filled with many different feelings!
but most of them are happiness i should say!
like every random date i thought back i will always smile to myself somehow!
like all the fun and cute things we do
from doing the ting action
to running around tress holding sparkles
and random language we created that noone and nobody knows
that's like very special to us!
all of these memories are pretty wonderful and unforgettable
that i think it is almost impossible to forget! haha

someone told me that i may be too reliant on you
sometimes i think so too like when you are overseas
suddenly i don't feel like doing anything
just want to engaged myself in gaming and videos
so that i can don't think about you
but obviously i can't!
every single thing around me i think of you
every single chat i have there is you
every single thing i do somehow it will connect back into you
my life is totally about you!
since i am so dependent on you
i will never let you go no matter what!
you must really stay by my side forever ok!
i am counting on that! xD

oh man sorry i should not have played any game today :(
made you so sian hai.
i will not lag replies when you are online leh no worries!
seriously sad about it but ya!
you will be my number girl!

from onetime: One love
My one heart My one life for sure Lemme tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you) And I'ma be your one guy You'll be my number one girl Always makin time for you I'ma tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you) I'ma tell you one time (girl I love, girl I love you)

i mean everything i said and i promise i will not let you down!
i love you alot sweetheart!
really nothing can separates us leh!
i pray for luck for both of us cos we seriously lack them somehow haha!
best wishes in 2010!
may the panda love continues itself forever xD

Dear!
your short post!
haha.
you're going to hk tml leh! until 7dec somemore omg T.T
can't say i won't miss you, cos i really will miss you like mad!
but as i say, as long as you still reside in my heart and
feel you pumping in it
i will stay happy throughout your trip xD

hmmm two more days to six months aka half a year!
though it's the first time we are unable to celebrate our months together,
our hearts are still beating for each other and surely we will be thinking of each other at that time xD
so don't be sad!
we can always push the celebration to another day
as long as we are still continuing this panda love of ours
i've nothing more to wish for leh xD

oh ya
dear remember to take care of yourself ok!
i will be worried for sure,
so pray wish hope you can come back in one piece!
i want to date with you after your trip!

hmmm don't know what to say here
cos i really very bu she
but i don't want to make this emo ahah
so yup!
i will wait for your return patiently,
hope laopo enjoy your time there happily
and know that there that you laogong will be in sg
waiting for my dearest to come back and date with him xD
I LOVE YOU SWEETHEART!
Happy 6months in advance xD
be safe ok!
i will be waiting xD
MUACKS